So it has been over four months since COVD-19 changed my world as I know it. One week I was enjoying life at a ski trip. Who would have known that when I returned home in matter of a weeks the domino effect would start. One thing, after another would happen due to this dreaded virus. 

I have been trying to remain positive and use this time as a time of reflection and growth. I have completed many things, many things that I was too busy to take care of pre-COVID.  I am in the process of finalizing my will,  and my power of attorney. I have made fitness goals despite no races this year. It so helps with my mental welfare. I cut some things out of my life that were not serving me.  I was blessed with free counseling a service provided to healthcare workers in my area. Last but not least, I  actually have been more intentionally about trying to date. Thanks to my girls for the needed push in that area. 

In the process of trying to be more intentionally about dating I am learning more about myself. In the hustle and bustle of life I usually just go and go. The fast pace of life often does not lend itself to much self-reflection. This pandemic has slapped me in the face, and made me face a few things.  One thing that I have learned is that relationship mirror relationship you have with yourself.

Things that we all can learn whether the relationship is long lasting or not

1. We chose how people ultimately treat us. If we love ourselves there are certain things we just won’t put up with. 
2. We cannot depend on others to make us happy. Happiness comes from within. It is too heavy a burden to put that on another human.
3. Insecurities will surface whether it be fear, selfishness, jealous 
4. In order to get something in life there is always a risk. The question is the risk worth the reward
5. We have to learn to communicate  more effectively or relationships will ultimately not be long-lasting. 

I am trying to smell the roses, and enjoy life as much as I can. If this year proves anything life is not certain. Our plans can change in a matter of minutes. We need to learn to play the hand we are dealt, and make the best of it.